I wish you enough...

I deleted the photo albums & blogs I used to visit for the past.
Visiting them was the FIRST thing to do as soon as I got online EVERY DAY; this was even more important than coming here or checking my e-mails!
I think to myself that if I keep PRETENDing there's nothing new or nothing more happening, there's really nothing existing!!!
Sounds more like an ostrich, escaping from the real world just by not knowing things from now on.
But I guess it's REALLY time for me to free myself, no matter what!
Otherwise, life would become too difficult to bear.

Then, I have to quit the habit of snooping about; this is the MUST-DO for now.
I should stop holding a VAIN HOPE that you will still visit my blog & care about everything of me.
WAKE UP, CLANCY!!!
How others feel is no longer important; yuor feeling is the ONLY thing you should care about.

The past two years were all IN VAIN; I finally get to know how bad & VALUELESS I've been.
Thanks for letting me know this without a doubt!
I feel bad about myself that I devoted so much to this relationship, but in the end, get nothing except for being DEEPLY hurt.
But somehow I hurt you as well, didn't I?
So I guess that would make us EVEN, huh?

Everything I did, I wanted to make the situation between us better.
But it just didn't turn out like that anyhow.
It's very very weird & I can't persuade myself now.
Everything until now has been too INEXPLICABLE.
It's like God's making a joke on me!