I wish you enough...

I don't really know how to describe my feelings now.
And obviously, I don't think there are any words good enough to let them out.
The whole thing is totally like a DREAM.
It's true that nobody knows about the future, but I don't understand why I've been trying so hard to grab or control everything.
It's all IN VAIN, isn't it?
Making you disappointed or angry is definitely the LAST thing I would do.
If I could turn back time, I would never do it AGAIN!
Though I know what I did was so AWFUL, I still think it was just a MISTAKE & I DESERVE another chance, like others do.
But, sorry! There are no more chances for you, Clancy!
What I can do is accept it because I have no other choices.
I feel very much UNFAIR, but I can do NOTHING.
All the good feelings just disappeared without any notice beforehand & I'm having a hard time dealing with this.
Anyhow, thanks for EVERYTHING & I'm terribly SORRY things didn't WORK OUT!
This is IT! Ciao~