近來對於教書這件事.只能說是"五味雜陳"
偶爾遇上對我出言不遜的學生.一把火上來的時候真的只想咆哮
但只要隨便來張卡片或是幾句令人感動不已的話.立刻又覺得"天啊~這真是最有價值的工作了!",
只可惜好事簡直跟blue moon一樣.出現得實在是少之又少啊~
上課睡覺擺爛的那種.如果不做到"視而不見".我實在連1.5個小時都撐不下去
有那種總帶著"我恨你"的眼神看我的.我常在想我究竟是做了什麼讓你如此怨我?!
碰到專挑難聽話講的.好幾次我都只能轉身.右手摸左手手鍊上的幾顆珠子.從一默數到幾十
至於那種視作業為無物.還一副"老子/老娘就是沒寫.你想怎樣?!"的.現在已經昇華到連說都不說的境地
2.3個小時的課.我都習慣在中間讓學生休息:上廁所.小睡養神.站起來活動筋骨...
每個老師上課的排程不同.所以下不下課.幾點下課.下課多久自然也就不會一樣
我都盡力要求我的學生不要吵到別的班級.但並不是每個老師都跟我有一樣的想法
所以偶爾難免發生我在上課的時候.別班的學生在外面嬉戲玩鬧的情形
終於鼓起勇氣問學生"你們覺得他們這樣吵鬧.尖叫怎麼樣?!"
我的預想答案→"很討厭!""影響我們上課!""老師你叫他們不要吵.好不好?!"
實際得到的答案→"不怎麼樣啊!""因為我們也會這樣吵他們!"
所以現在是怎樣?!別人爛.我們就要跟他們比爛嗎?!
這兩天會考英文考題的餘波盪漾...
上國一.國二的課.我都叮囑學生以後的考題只會越來越長.要有耐心.平時就要多讀.培養語感
不少的反應就是"長喔?!那我不要唸了!".跟背單字/句型的心態如出一轍:凡是遇上長字.長句就"直接放棄"
奇怪了!神魔抽不到卡怎麼不會直接放棄?!LOL卡關了怎麼不直接關機?!
現在孩子們能說出來的話跟抱持的心態.實在是越來越不能理解~再教1年就邁入10週年的我也真的累了!!!
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這是一封我在去年6月1日收到的e-mail.寄件者是當時我工作的其中一個補習班的老闆
照我的個性.這樣的e-mail我一定是看了立刻刪掉.因為它無禮的程度絕對沒有繼續存在的必要
可是我留了下來.因為我要常常提醒自己不要變成這樣的人...
信件部份原文(沒有po出來的是前半部關於6/5的Lesson Plan):
Clancy ,
另外今天6/1打電話給老師只是想詢問老師是否有拿Azar的答案本 , 但老師應對的語氣似乎急了點 , 我有點訝異 , 通常我打電話給老師們 , 多半就是要跟老師討論課程 , 說實在的每位老師到我們的電話都滿客氣的 , 都會先跟我們打個招呼都滿禮貌的 , 但聽到老師ㄧ開口即說 , 怎麼了? 怎樣? 好像接 到我們的電話不是很愉悅 , 似乎會發生什麼事情ㄧ樣 , 通常在我補習班的老師我 都會以禮相待 , 老師對於接到我們的電話請不用太訝異 , 語氣可以再和緩一點 , 雖然老師在這裡上課時數不多 , 但老師敎的還不錯 , 我們還是希望能跟老師相處愉快.
我的回信如下(xxx為補習班名稱):
已收到lesson plan
不過.對於信件最後你指出的問題.我感到不太舒服
簡而言之.我覺得那是不實的"指責".所以我"也"感到很訝異
上個星期六找你談上課的問題.其實是打算向你請辭
在你跟我說明會改變上課型態之後.想說試試看再說
誠如我所說.在xxx教書.學生們都很可愛.可是我個人覺得壓力很大.很綁手綁腳
現在既然你已經覺得我沒有"以禮相待".我覺得之後也沒有再過去上課的必要
所以上週六5/29就算是我最後一次過去上課.這星期六開始請另外安排老師帶領G班和F班
最後.在我這裡的3本書(Reading Way, Reading Builder以及Azar)還有"1本"答案我會全部歸還.請務必回覆我方便過去的時間
再煩請將5月份的薪水$4,200在我過去時一併交給我(原數為$6,000.扣除5/1的hour pay$1,800已在4月的薪水支付)
如果不方便.屆時我會給你我的郵局局.帳號.請在6/10前匯款完成
我從來沒有碰過任何一個補習班的老闆會在老師一早"不好意思地"打了個呵欠之後.冷冷地說句"喲~累了啊?!"
也沒有遇上哪個老闆要把每次的上課內容詳細列出來再e-mail給老師.要老師全部照著上的
雖然我教書並沒有很多年.但我自認是個周到.懂禮節的老師
同事之間有的的確不能算是朋友.但至少我會做到點頭.打招呼.道謝
面對家長再奇怪的指責.我內心再不服.我也說句"對不起"
真的沒有任何一個補習班最後是這樣不歡而散的!
我收到這封e-mail的時候真的很無言.只覺得"欲加之罪.何患無辭"
後來很生氣.簡直想要抓起電話.直接打回去demo給她看怎樣才叫做"沒有禮貌"
回完信之後.就覺得算了.反正"此處不留人.自有留人處".中途過去接了個國三班.我自認已經盡力了...
過了這麼久之後再看.只覺得好笑.還覺得自己的修養進步了許多!哇哈哈哈~
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So today, I punished my 8th-grade students...physically!
I felt terrible, to the extent that I almost burst into tears!
This was the first time I did this to my students.
I don't think I can do it again as it gave me too much pain.
You have my word!!!
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that distance makes beauty.
This is the thing I've kept reminding myself, but somehow I can't seem to remember it well.
Anyhow...if that's the case, I might have to write it onto a Post-it & stick it on the wall in front of me.
It's kind of sad, don't you think?
What the hell are we here for?
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So, yesterday while I was driving on Expressway 68, listening to ICRT at the same time, Joseph Lin's words caught my attention.
He sounded serious, which was a bit bizarre, since it was a Feel-Good Friday (according to Stevie G.).
Then, through his explanation, I realized that he was gonna call out to this girl, on behalf of a boy, who is suffering from cancer and fighting for his life, at the very moment.
He wanted to tell her there was nobody that could replace her in his heart & he'd always love her.
She said that they'd lost contact for two years & he didn't want her to see him being sick.
The song he requested was "I Will Always Love You" by Whitney Houston; it was very beautifully sung, as you might imagine.
However, what struck me was the love that couldn't go on because of the illness & the love that could definitely go on, even though one of them no longer exists.
I couldn't help but wonder if I were in their position, either of them, what would I do?
Would I just disappear, leaving all my loved ones behind?
Or if my ex's were dying & sending out messages like this, would I be generous enough to get reconnected, like nothing really happened before?
Well, I don't have the answer for now.
Who knows? Probably because I'm not ready to let go?
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While people are having their blues on Monday, I'm having mine on Thursday.
Weird, eh?
I thought about this for a long time, but could never get an answer!
I guess, however, it's probably because it takes a lot for me to get used to a new working environment.
So I complain, I growl & I lose heart!
Thursdays become a total nightmare then.
"Fix You" on the way home is the salvation!
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年前的時候我總算把人力銀行的履歷打開.於是乎開始了接電話約面試的日子
遇上過很囉嗦的老闆.滔滔不絕地跟我細述他們開班的理念
或是看了我的畢業證書以及證照集後.只淡淡地說了一句"學歷不重要!"
再者就是直接丟一份文法考卷過來看我實力如何(想當然我在5分鐘之內就把題目全部解決)
也有給我15分鐘準備.然後直接做全英demo.再開出一個天殺的低hour pay
不然就是忘記跟我約了面試.要我坐在補習班門口吹風受凍
還有姍姍來遲卻面不改色.彷彿老闆遲到就是天經地義的事一般
這些雖然討厭.也就算了.最讓我不能忍受的.就是說謊!!!
我知道.如果這個世界上沒有謊言.地球可能就得停止轉動了(雖然我不能接受.但是我清楚得很)
可是也沒有必要說大話.誇海口.來吸引我去教書啊!
比方說.把班上的人數浮報.把自己的教學功力褒上天.把班內的老師講得相處多融洽.把學生的實力講得多好...blah blah blah
我去上了兩節課後.就什麼都知道了啊!
這一切又何必呢?!
不過是件小小的事也得說謊.不覺得人生太苦了嗎?!
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為什麼我都已經快30了.氣到不行的時候還是只會亂哭一通?!
真的累了...
可以停一停了!!!
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So, last night I went to sleep at around midnight.
When it was almost time for me to wake up this morning, I found myself TRAPPED in this horrible dream.
It was RIDICULOUSLY real & I was having a bit COLD SWEAT-_-
In the dream, I was at my presentation, standing in the front waiting for people to come in & get ready for my speech.
However, when I was about to start, I just realized that I was supposed to have my presentation at 10, instead of 9:30.
PHEW! What a relief!
Sadly, it was at that time that I found out my favorite font "Papyrus" was not in the PC cart that I was going to use: My powerpoint slides were totally in a mess!!!
Worst of all, I forgot to bring the Peanuts theme song for my opening-_-
I was thinking about going home to get both of them since it was only 400 steps away from the campus; but, only 20 minutes left!!!
If I went back, I might have to run all the way & I would end up being really sweaty!
After thinking about it for a while, I decided to do nothing & it was when I realized that Neo wasn't there for the shooting-_-
How come everything went wrong like this? There was not turning back!!!
Finally, I told myself to accept the truth that basically I screwed up my own once-in-a-lifetime presentation and that was that!!!
Thankfully, before I almost bursted into tears, I woke up & happily found out that it was ONLY a nightmare!!!
I must have been under A LOT OF pressure, don't you think?
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