I wish you enough...

EVERY TIME while I'm making juice, I always think of THE guy.
Until now, I still remember the day very clearly...so clearly that it HURTS!
That day, I made apple-grape milk with Mom.
I carefully peeled the grape & cut the apple, hurried downstairs & handed the disposalbe cup filled with FRESH juice to him, watching him drink it up EUPHORICALLY.
So many years passed by, we FINALLY got together, then SUDDENLY we were apart, there's nothing remained...
This guy took EVERYTHING from me, but only left me COUNTLESS lies, NEVER will he come back again.
Every day I wake up, all these are just like a DREAM to me; sometimes I even wonder if it's true.
Once a male friend told me that the girl he broke up with was really nice & UNDERSTANDING because she just accepted the truth & walked away QUIETLY.
But, does he really know how much that hurts? I don't think so.
However, the girl left a good impression behind her, at least.
Me? Nothing but ANNOYANCE or HARRASSMENT...
Somehow I am like a DISASTER; keeping in touch with me or answering my phone becomes a DREADFUL thing to do & we can't even be friends.
I'm NODOBY to him, so there's no need to care about how I feel or how MISERABLE I've been for the past few months.
I'm just a PASSERBY, am I not?
Very sad, but YES!
Things happened before can't be changed & mistakes can't be corrected, I know.
But, I still wish that we had never been in love, for I'd rather be lonely than be hurt.
(Were we REALLY in love before? I'm dying to know.)