Usually, I get EXCITED when the postman comes EVERY DAY.
Actually, I'm not waiting for any letters; even getting the catalogs from SOGO or FE21' or the bill from the bank would make me happy.
Maybe that's the ONLY proof I'm still REMEMBERED!!!
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I can't answer your phone from now on.
Though I don't even know what you are going to say, I still decide to do it this way.
Maybe you will feel strange, but I don't have other choices.
All of you are SUPREME friends for me, but being with you guys will remind me of those MISERIES.
After 3, 5 or 10 years, maybe? I will be able to MINGLE with you like BEFORE, but not NOW.
I DO hope that you can be UNDERSTANDING, too.
So...can you wait for me?
Will you STILL be there when the day comes?
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I think I'll continue writing & posting photos here because it's my OWN space.
I can't control what others may say or feel after coming here; however, I won't LOCK them UP, either, cuz I don't want to be as FISHY as SOMEONE.
All I want to do is share my true feelings & my life with all the people.
(But, honestly, I don't really want to share this with SOME people because they don't really DESERVE to know anything about ME!!!)
Anywayz...it's good to have my blog REOPENED.
Thanks for all the support from my loyal readers & I'll keep writing things down until the day I can't write anymore!
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每一天醒來
我都告訴自己"真好!我又多撐過了一天!"
每一次忍不住激動的心情reconnect之後
之前所有的努力又歸零
一切得重新開始
我知道這樣不好
真的不好
也許在一些人眼中
我已經成了不折不扣的瘋子
喪失心志到了一個極點
一度我覺得你們的要求我都做不到
這一切的一切都讓我好累
我只能說我也想努力慢慢let go
但請給我時間
Please don't be too harsh on me!
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Jill & Yvonne called me from France tonight.
It was very nice to hear their voice & feel the happy ATMOSPHERE.
I DO wish that I had been there with them.
(Dear Jill, thanks for letting me know you are a LOYAL reader of my blog & I'm starting to look forward to your NOT-SO-SINCERE postcard!)
(BTW, I am OBSESSED about blog, too^_^)
Here, I have to say that they are 2 of my best, BeSt, BEST friends.
(Of course there are still others who are important to me, too, though not too many...)
It's AFFINITY that brought us together.
I met Jill first when I entered NCTU; later, they met because of a club.
I remember once I felt sad because it seemed that they were closer to each other, but I was not INCLUDED.(OK, now I know I'd been CHILDISH!!!)
Anywayz...we experienced lots of things together.
Sadly, after Jill's going to the states for her master studies, we lost contact for about 1 and half years.(You stupid!!!)
Luckily, we RECONNECTED last year; she hasn't changed A BIT, though we 3 are still apart.(America→Asia→Europe)
I really miss those OLD happy days when we could go to a place on an IMPULSE, take funny pictures or talk about NONSENSE but still felt EXTREMELY happy, just because WE WERE TOGETHER!!!
I've always been GRATEFUL for the SUPPORT you 2 gave me when I SUFFERED.
I know I might not be EXACTLY the same Clancy as before, but MOST of me hasn't changed.
I hope that both of you can find what you REALLY want in the near future & lead a happy life afterwards.
DON'T FORGET TO MEET IN FRANCE IN 2017!!!
Most important of all, we got to be friends FOREVER!!!
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大學的時候到David's打工
認識了Amanda跟Robin還有很多很多人
第一次見到Amanda的時候覺得她蠻嚴肅的又有點兇
真的一起上班之後卻每天都很開心
跟Robin第一次見面被嗆
因為他覺得他的英文一定不比我差
後來Robin變得超寵我的
雖然常說我跟Amanda都是任性的老么
但還是天天跟我玩成語接龍玩得很high
我們去KTV的時候
Robin說我跟Amanda一個是太陽歌后一個是月亮歌后
Amanda唱周蕙"風鈴"的樣子還有歌聲
一直到現在我都記得很清楚
感覺起來很是滄桑
背後一定有著很多故事
Robin說再難過的歌被我一唱就會變得一點都不難過反而還很有活力
因為我經歷得還不夠...
那時候的我真的不懂
唱歌不就是那樣嗎?!需要什麼經歷啊?!
但是今天我懂了
第一次我邊唱著一首歌邊流下停不住的眼淚
我總算了解到那些充滿感情的歌聲裡是多沉重的傷
如果現在Robin聽到了我的歌聲是不是可以感受到我的轉變還有我的傷呢?!
或許就像歌詞所寫的吧?!
愛一年往往要傷個三五年...愛一遍教人老了好幾十歲...
沒嚐試過的人不停地想要修這門學分...我呢?寧願從來沒有選修過...
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她看起來很好 我祝你們白首偕老
可是我一直不明瞭 你怎麼能那麼快
就把屬於我倆的往事 全部忘掉
你似乎很快樂 我祝你們永浴愛河
雖然我心扉痛澈 把你的信還留著
我想問你到底如何對愛情作取捨
記得你的甜言蜜語也好 忘了你的甜言蜜語也好
你用溫柔做成的圈套 曾讓我痛哭流淚 卻不想離開也不想逃
記得你的甜言蜜語也好 忘了你的甜言蜜語也好
希望你謊言越說越少 給女人真心的擁抱 別讓她像我傷心沒有人知道
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EVERY TIME while I'm making juice, I always think of THE guy.
Until now, I still remember the day very clearly...so clearly that it HURTS!
That day, I made apple-grape milk with Mom.
I carefully peeled the grape & cut the apple, hurried downstairs & handed the disposalbe cup filled with FRESH juice to him, watching him drink it up EUPHORICALLY.
So many years passed by, we FINALLY got together, then SUDDENLY we were apart, there's nothing remained...
This guy took EVERYTHING from me, but only left me COUNTLESS lies, NEVER will he come back again.
Every day I wake up, all these are just like a DREAM to me; sometimes I even wonder if it's true.
Once a male friend told me that the girl he broke up with was really nice & UNDERSTANDING because she just accepted the truth & walked away QUIETLY.
But, does he really know how much that hurts? I don't think so.
However, the girl left a good impression behind her, at least.
Me? Nothing but ANNOYANCE or HARRASSMENT...
Somehow I am like a DISASTER; keeping in touch with me or answering my phone becomes a DREADFUL thing to do & we can't even be friends.
I'm NODOBY to him, so there's no need to care about how I feel or how MISERABLE I've been for the past few months.
I'm just a PASSERBY, am I not?
Very sad, but YES!
Things happened before can't be changed & mistakes can't be corrected, I know.
But, I still wish that we had never been in love, for I'd rather be lonely than be hurt.
(Were we REALLY in love before? I'm dying to know.)
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Maybe I got up on the WRONG side of the bed...
It hurt TOO much when the TRUTH was revealed.
Somehow the thing I did was half right & half wrong.
At 4:00, I arrived at A-TALK & decided to give myself a new hairdo.
Actually, it wasn't new at all, I just had it STRAIGHTENED because I didn't have many choices to choose from.
It took more than 4 hours to finish it; Monica, Bi-fen & I had a great time talking about relationships & stocks.
It seems that Monica has become the GODDESS of stock, too!
Maybe I'll give it a try, but not sure yet, cuz it's WAY harder than the fund.
I've got a stomachache all day long, but I still gave myself a rice-burger from MOS on the way to the bus station.
Finally, I got ONE pair of my glasses back; I missed it A LOT, though I have another 5 pairs to wear:p
I couldn't enjoy my late dinner on the bus cuz there were too many people & I had to stand HALF the way.
The contact lens were killing me, so my eyes are now really sore.
I've got a terrible headache, too.
Everything went wrong today...so WRONG!
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It's getting more & more UNBEARABLE!!!
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