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  • 3月 23 週日 200807:53
  • Where Paths Meet(by Kevin Kern, Beyond the Sundial)

今天是spring break的第一天
一早六點半醒來就打電話回台灣問選情.很高興馬英九當選了
心情被昨天房東下的驅逐令搞得一點小糟...anyway...
我很努力地在唸書中.後來覺得有點太靜了.就放Kevin Kern的音樂來聽
聽到Beyond the Sundial(時間之河)這張專輯第3首
Where Paths Meet的時候.我整個人就僵住了
因為我聽過這首曲目.就在'06年看心理師的時候
音樂真的很神奇.立刻就把我帶回到那段痛苦的回憶
我記得我總是期待星期一的到來.因為跟心理師談話的那一小時是我一整個星期的唯一救贖
他說我每到會談要結束的時候.就會開始把卸下來的盔甲再一一地穿上
每次紅著眼睛離開診所的情景我還記得很清楚
曾經我覺得我可能就這樣永遠地低潮哀傷下去了
也試著從某個人的身上尋求永遠不可能得到的關注
現在只覺得那時候真傻
一切都久遠得好像是上輩子的事
哪有什麼是永遠的呢?!
快樂不是
感情不是
還好
悲傷也不是
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  • 3月 16 週日 200800:14
  • About English...

Wed., Mar. 12th (Arbor Day)
I made a terrible mistake on Test #1 of ENG 653.
What was wrong with the sentence "Gas and maintenance is expensive."?
I was so CARELESS & MIXED-UP because I also studied "the principle of proximity"
Anyway...
Thu., Mar. 13th
NO CLASS TODAY, but I still went to school in the afternoon for the STUPIDEST & most INVALID experiment I've ever seen!
The equipment didn't work, the directions given were shitty & the people in charge SUCKed!!!
I just had a feeling that from then on, I wouldn't believe any research any more.
This bad feeling made me eat a pack of Doritos on my way to BORDERS
According to Dr. Jain, we'll never achieve native-speaker proficiency; at most, native-LIKE!
Still, there are ways to make us better; one of them is "books on tape".
(But, there are FEW people using tape recorder right now; I guess what he meant was actually AUDIOBOOK!)
At first, I was thinking about getting myself Harry Potter, but this store was out of stock; besides, it was SUPER expensive: one episode cost about 50 bucks!!!
This was why I chose "P.S. I LOVE YOU", which was only $15.
Then, I had dinner @ McDonald's.
When the guy was about to sitting next to me, he stared @ my plate...Why?
HAHA!!! It was because we had similiar combination...
I was eating strawberry sundae while drinking tea & what he had were chocolate sundae & coffee!
Fri., Mar. 14th (White Valentine)
I woke up late & I suddenly realized that I should have watched morning news every day since I moved into this place.
I wasted my time doing nonsense at all...anyway, I'd start this from today!
On the way to school, I began my audiobook journey!
P.S. I LOVE YOU was AWECOME & kinda TOUCHING...HIGHLY RECOMMENDABLE!!!
During Dr. Jain's office hour, we five went to ask him some questions about the midtem next Monday.
Oh my god! He wrote something on my notes to explain to all of us!!!
I'll keep those paper FOREVER!!!
I also had a feeling that my relistening to the lectures and rewriting my notes finally PAID OFF!
After the study group for ENG 424 & the tutorial with my tutee, I went to SUBWAY for dinner, while listening to P.S. I LOVE YOU.
When I was about to leave school, I met Diana & we chatted until 7 o'clock in the cold wind!
I missed Ranch 99 A LOT!!!
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  • 3月 12 週三 200810:45
  • Tue., Mar. 11

It was my FIRST day being the Conversation Group Leader for ALI; fortunately, it went well (at least, in my point of view!)
The students were cute & YOUNG; they're Shirley (from Nanjing, China), Annie (from
Ho Chi Minh City, Vietnam), Leo (from Liaoning, China) & Joe (from Taipei, Taiwan).
Hopefully, things will get better & better later on!
After that, I went to safeway to get some stuff.
While I was waiting for the bus to come home, there was an old Japanese lady, who was so impatient.
As soon as she found out that I was Chinese, she started to tell me & the other woman @ the bus stop that her boyfriend was Chinese, too.
According to her, she'd never seen any Chinese like her boyfriend (I think she was trying to say that her boyfriend was REALLY good-looking!).
Other than that, her boyfriend had a good job in education, too (which made him even more attractive!).
Anyway...after a few minutes, she decided to walk back home, so she happily said goodbye to us!
Later on, two other old ladies smiled at me; I think today was a "senior citizen" day for me...HA!
But I did wish that I can be this ADORABLE when I'm old.
With the approach of Easter & spring break, I'm thinking about SOMEONE...
Nobody knows how much I want him to see the beautiful SUNSHINE in California & how much I want to walk across Golden Gate Bridge with him...
But, all these are not going to come true, no matter what!
Just have a feeling that being in LOVE has never been EASY, then why do we always ASK FOR TROUBLE?
It's SO WRONG to say that I'm strong...
I was not like this before; I SEEM strong now only because I FORCE myself to.
But anyway...WHO CARES?
If there were no calla lily, no flower clock, no airport, no beef noodles, no cheesecake...things would be a lot EASIER, wouldn't they?

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  • 個人分類:Diary
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  • 3月 09 週日 200809:29
  • 我多麼羨慕你(by江美琪)

有時候 風太急 禁不住 掛念起你 這一刻 離我遙遠飛行
有時候 夜太靜 攔不住 回憶的心 於是淚 每個夜裡如繁星
我多麼羨慕你 總可以 轉身飛 遠遠的
我的愛是你 沈重行李 絆住你追新夢的決心
我多麼想念你 當時間 都失去了意義
穿越思念後 等成信箱 讓你需要的時候可以 投遞
告訴我 沿途中 想與我 分享的心情
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  • 3月 05 週三 200808:51
  • Mon., Mar. 3

It was a really SUNNY day; HOWEVER...
Finally Dr. Jain set the date for midterm of Phonology & Morphology, which is Mar. 17th.
What occupies my mind now is the 1st test for Scovel's class, so I don't really have extra time and energy to think about other things.
(Though I know there's another test for Grammar class, 1 error analysis and 1 PPP assignment coming up...)
I didn't get as much as I had expected in the discussion; maybe it was because I didn't study hard enough.
Anyway, I got really frustrated on my way home; I was rather familiar with this kind of feeling actually, but couldn't help...
After getting home, I just made a sudden decision to do the laundry and this was when the tragedy happened.
I tripped over the wire connected to my laptop, so my PRECIOUS U5F fell off the desk onto the floor
Thankfully, it still works! (That's the reason why I can get access to the Internet and posting articles now...)
To my surprise, Alen, who is now in Boston on a business trip, and I opened up a super HILARIOUS conversation about the old days and we had such a great time talking about the stupid things happened when we were still YOUNG!
Anyhow...I finished half of the preparation for the test on Wed. and then went to bed!
All I hope is the test could be over pretty soon!!!
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  • 個人分類:Diary
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  • 3月 03 週一 200812:45
  • 無題

人
總是不停不停地在改變的
我沒用"成長"這兩個字
因為我並不確定這樣的改變究竟是好還是壞
很久很久以前
我認為自己是個無比樂觀的人
每次碰到"Please describe yourself with 3 adjectives."這個問題
我的Top 1 answer一定就是"optimistic"
可是其實仔細想想
這世界上應該再沒有人比我悲觀了吧~
曾經我寫過一段話
苦心經營一段感情只是枉然
因為無論是中途還是最後都一定會說再見
向來我就不是一個做任何事都得拉著某個人一起的人
所以在第一次的感情大挫折之後我開始訓練自己變得更加獨立
這一切都是在為了將來做準備
只是同時我心裡卻感到無比的哀傷
那天突然想到今年過完我的生日我就是徹底的28歲了
18歲的青春幼稚或許還有些許的無知竟然已經是10年前的事
沒想到有一天我竟然快30歲
天啊!是30歲耶...
也許正是因為如此
除了哀傷之外
現在我還感受到前所未有的孤單
這種孤單並不只是源自於身處異鄉的現實情況
大半是心靈層面的
我很清楚
雖然對於人是孑然一身地來到這個世上再不帶走一片雲彩地離開這個世界的想法再清楚不過
但總是會在有些時刻免不了同情起自己
在舊金山的這兩年對我是很特別的
畢竟
這是我自己一個人獨立生活的頭一遭
但也許我並不會很懷念
我羨慕又嫉妒那些在異鄉可以交到朋友的人
也許我並不能
究竟是我個性太古怪還是開始變老或是其它原因
我並不清楚
但事實就是我的室友並不是我能分享的朋友
我的同學們除了語言的隔閡外
還有一種詭異的感覺更是無法交心
所以
在無論是快樂還是悲傷的情緒已經多到快從嘴巴湧出的時候
按完手機的電話簿
還是找不到對的那個人
一個也沒有
不過這樣的感覺在台灣也曾有過
所以
不過只是之前的情況延續至今
一直以來
我很喜歡收到信的感覺
以前學生寫給我的每張卡片小紙條
我都還完整地收在箱子中
在人生中的很多時刻收到的問候祝福關心
也都好好地在衣櫃的鐵盒子裡
對我來說
這些都是無比珍貴的回憶
所以我也喜歡不時地給一些人捎捎信息
生日問候幾乎不曾遺漏
曾經我熱切地送上我的心意卻硬生生地被澆了一盆超級大冰水
精心設計的驚喜也被不當一回事過
於是乎
我開始吝於付出
因為我並不期待能夠獲得
諷刺的是
不付出只想獲得卻總還是失落
會不會在某個時候我也這樣地傷過人而不自知呢?!
有沒有可能這個看似沒什麼的舉動卻大大地改變了對方的許多許多呢?!
一定有的
但我竟然驕傲到認為絕對沒有
兜了一圈之後
一切好像又回到原點了
現在我只覺得我應該一直堅持當初的信念
我還應該學習不要再這樣的NAIVE
太過相信別人最後苦的只是自己
我並不喜歡那種遮遮掩掩或是複雜難懂的人際關係
我也沒有心力再去承擔另一個人的感受
難道純粹的簡單是奢求嗎?!
其實
我並不愛我自己
因為我總是把別人的感覺放在自己的感覺之上
所以才會一直一直很疲憊
每天每天
我最難受的時間
就是睡醒一睜開眼的那一刻
因為從那個時候開始
我知道我又得面對一整天複雜迷惑的惱人過程
不過
這大概就是人生吧?!
五味雜陳的一齣戲
就算再不想演也只能勉強撐到落幕的一齣戲
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  • 3月 01 週六 200814:35
  • 應觀眾要求...

所以我來po篇文章...BTW...這個觀眾就是我姐(大概是成天在家帶小孩太無聊了)
先來說什麼好呢?!
好吧...上個星期四元宵節.Jojo帶著Jayden來找我玩耍

Todai的午餐時間2:30結束.我們硬是亂迷路然後在1:45的時候進餐廳狂吃
總之完全是個大失所望.$14.95(不含稅跟小費)吃起來連爭鮮都不如(我又開始懷念起WASABI...)
後來我們又去了DMV申請California ID(花了老娘我$23.00.就為了以後方便買酒-_-)
最後再去Ranch 99跟Safeway狂買東西
星期五TSA在Student Center樓下辦活動.我深深地覺得格格不入
不過離開的時候竟然看到Dr. Jain走進來準備吃中餐.哇哈哈哈!真開心~
回家之後發覺門上"又"貼了張來自臭臉女的紙條.沒多久以後她過來質問我是不是吃了她的Vietnamese noodles
我堅決地說了NO之後的3秒鐘她竟然用很狐疑的表情再問一次"Are you sure?"
真的是他媽的沒腦到了極點.不相信別人幹嘛還問啊?!
妳是以為問了10次之後我就會投降然後說"Alright, alright! It's me...I'll pay you $6.50"嗎?!無知愚蠢至極的瘋女人!!!
最好那是什麼山珍海味啦!我朱家彤就算是餓死也不稀罕吃你那個鬼東西...
後來又不經意地發現她在另一"盆"她的食物上貼了另一張紙條.上頭寫著"Don't touch this bitches"
真的是拷北到家!!!不過還好我現在修養已經到了另一個境界了.拍張照片笑笑就算了.不跟你這種小人一般見識!!!
晚上我一口氣在Amazon訂了一系列的5本書: 101 American English Idioms/Customs/Proverbs/Riddles/Superstitions
目前收到2本.所以Proverbs就成了我的碎碎唸內容.歡迎大家一起學英文!
然後原本上星期六要去Chinatown的Community Street Fair晃晃然後看Chinese New Year Parade
沒想到當天刮大風下大雨.所以就在家裡一連窩了2天
星期一到學校去聽說活動完全沒取消.大家都穿雨衣撐雨傘共襄盛舉
我錯過了這次只好再等366天-_-(因為今年是閨年...哈~)
通常魔鬼星期三我都一定要回家把上午的書跟binder放下.然後拿下午的書和binder
不過我已經把家裡的東西都吃光了.所以這個星期三中餐就只好在學校解決
通常我吃東西的癮頭都是一陣一陣的(之前很瘋tortilla和subway.後來改瘋bagel).所以這次我特別決定要嚐個鮮
於是乎我花了$3.25點了Aram Wrap Combo(Roasted Veggie + Turkey).又花了$3.25點了杯Coit Tower Smoothie(裡面好像是bananas + peanut butter + chocolate milk + low fat yoghurt)
總之吃完後我也沒有特別開心.然後不知道為什麼莫名其妙地胃痛起來...
原本以為要龜速寄送的California ID竟然在星期四就收到了
我一定要趕快去買酒!!!
好不容易總算到了今天星期五...
下課之後我就趕到Stonestown去.先在Origins買了眼唇卸妝液.再到Bath & Body Works買Hand Foaming Soap
(無意間竟然發現我的最愛White Tea & Ginger要每年的1月跟6月才會出...呀呼!)
接著到BORDERS去買了迴紋針跟Made in Taiwan的可愛但超貴磁鐵
最後才到McDonald's去吃中餐(McChicken, small fries, chocolate sundae $1.00/ea.再加上$1.79的medium diet coke)
然後今天是我第一次跟我的grammar tutee見面上課.總之一切還算ok
回家之後我"終於"收到了來自ALI的確認信: 我被選上Conversation Group Leader了!!!
一週1小時.為期8週.可以拿到$150的honorarium!!!哇哈哈哈...
原本想說沒什麼好寫的平淡生活.認真想一想還能擠出這麼多東西.我真是太強了!
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  • 2月 21 週四 200812:44
  • 很近...卻也很遠...

這一次
我很俐落地把照片.檔案.有關的一切
打包進資料夾
MSN是個很神奇的東西
我的想像是這樣的
明明我們都在同個空間裡
可是block這個吊詭的功能在我們之間築起了一道牆
我知道這個時候你在
但我選擇不想知道
你以為我不在
其實我一直沒走
只是你再也見不到我
即使是這樣...日子還是一天一天地過
聽起來很是幼稚
但你怎麼樣也不能明瞭

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  • 2月 16 週六 200812:54
  • The Road Not Taken(by Robert Frost)

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth; 

Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same, 

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back. 

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

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  • 2月 13 週三 200815:44
  • 衰

星期天跟Annie, Diana還有Iris要出發到Westlake之前.我在家裡摔傷了
事情是這樣的...
因為我rearranged了房間之後.達新牌衣櫥前的空間小到我沒辦法走進去
所以每次我要拿衣櫥裡的東西.都是站在床上拿的
但那天很鳥的是我一踩上床一個不小心.左腳就滑進了mattress跟frame中間的縫隙
接著就重心不穩.整個人往地上倒.不過我的左腳還卡在中間.所以重重地摔在地上.左腳的膝蓋著地
這已經不知道是第幾次我弄傷左膝了?!印象所及.可能至少有4次...
-在新竹師院前的7-11走路不好好走.用飛的
-在家懶惰坐在椅子上溜去丟垃圾.結果人出去了.椅子還在原地
-台北小巨蛋溜冰摔倒
-舊金山小窩裡摔得驚天動地人都傻了
後來還是拖著傷腳去grocery shopping.回家後發現大瘀血出現了
昨天中午吃了超棒的Smoked Salmon Bagel後到學校的Student Health Service去.拿了號碼牌等了個1小時.結果only made an appointment...
最快的看診時間就是今天一早9:00.所以我準時地出現在Clinic A
小姐先量我的體溫跟血壓.就拿短褲給我換上.等了老半天醫生才出現
結果我跟他敘述完我的傷史之後他先檢查了我的膝蓋再安排我照X光.然後拿了10顆止痛藥的sample給我.叮嚀我回家要冰敷
(老美愛褒人的習性又出來了.連看到我的SWATCH舊SKIN都要稱讚一下)
最後他在寫單子的時候問我是不是dancer?我說不是.他又問"那是acrobat囉?!"
什麼鬼啊?!以為老娘我是李棠華特技團的嗎?!
反正最後我也不知道我的膝蓋到底有沒有怎樣.因為醫生說如果怎樣他會打電話給我的(不過中午我不慎早早睡死.有一通未接來電-_-)
整件事情的結論就是我是個手腳很不協調的笨蛋.再來就是美國的醫療制度真的很不方便...以上!!!

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